Daddy.. wat did u say??? i hate it wen he starts reading... i dun like it... i knew it all... u dun hav to do e reading for me.. i tink he's not realli aware i'm very like him too.. haix... maybe cz im defiant... i alwes go against wat i read.. i dun like to play it safe.. i'm jz nt as guarded.. ttz y i get bruised all e time.. but at least im leaving a fair life.. & living life to e fullest.. haix...

Daddy plz stop reading... i jz wish u'd stop.. i noe.. u meant it well.. i can read as well as u can... i noe.. hw to take care of myself.. i've well developed my skills.. perhaps years back i wasn't aware.. but nw i am.. truly & fully.. haix...

on a separate note.. hmm.. thou e song is nice but as i read e lyrics.. hmm... very familiar to my situation...

wha- wha- what did she say
Mmmm whatcha say
Mmm that you only meant well? - when u said u wanted to leave & gave me away?
well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say
Mmmm that it´s all for the best? - tt wat u're doing is in e hope of making me happier?
of course it is

cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
i just didn´t know what to do - u alwes dunno wat to do..
but when i become a star we´ll be living so large
i´ll do anything for you - i've wished upon millions stars u'd do anything for me.. jz like wat i've done for u.. was i not worth for u fighting for & working hard for?
so tell me girl - must i tell u everything?

indeed acceptance of reality is harder than it seems..

& will "sorry" change anything??

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you want to go,
and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
and if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' 'til you find the window,
if it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,
but more than anything, more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can haul,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
all the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and always give more then you take.

But more than anything, Yeah, and more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can haul,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can haul,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
this is my wish
i hope you know somebody loves you
may all your dreams stay big

& above all..

 i miss most was the 'once in while' fancy candle light dinners that i get to dress up prettily..

& e overloaded chocolatess..

haix..

if i run, would u chase? if i fall wud u catch? if i look back, will u still be thr?

"If you're happy. I'm happy.. Go.." ~ I'm not Single the movie.

but i'm not happy.. or should i say.. happier.. haix..

strawberry.. i'm confused. damn i hate tiz!